|Main blog:||Darker Dreams|
|Birthday:||November 13th |
|Race/lineage:||White / Caucasian|
|Location:||United States, Ohio, Beloit|
|Height:||5' 10" (178 cm)|
|Hair Color:||Black Brown|
|Hair Style:||Ever Changing|
|Undies:||Briefs - Low Rise|
|Tattoo Info:||getting one once i turn 16--even though i'm not supposed to|
|Piercing Info:||both ears twice|
|Relationship Status:||Single - Never Married|
|Family Info:||one sister...|
|Sexual Preference:||Bisexual leaning toward Men|
|Astrological Sign:||Scorpio (Oct 24 - Nov 21)|
|Smoking:||No. But not bothered by it|
|Biography/About:||um...yeah...this is fun...|
|Likes:||music, reading, internet, chatting, meeting new peoples...|
|Dislikes:||sexy gay guys...it's sad...|
|Interests:||too many for words.|
|Books:||DNAngel, Psychic Academy, Old Magic, Sweep, Number the Stars, Magician, Artemis Fowl, Harry Potter series, Hamlet|
|Authors:||Nora Roberts, Stephen King|
|Music Genres:||anything except rap and most country|
|Bands/Artists:||Linkin Park, System of a Down, Simple Plan, Blink-182, Yellowcard, Acceptance, Green Day, Good Charlotte, Seether, Unwritten Law, Queen, The Used, New Found Glory, Andrew WK, |
|TV Shows:||Red Dwarf, Invader Zim, MASH|
|Movies:||Final Destination, The Day After Tomorrow, Jumping Jack Flash, Medicine Man, Dogma, Pirates of the Carribbean, Sound of Music, Wayne's World, Stand, homeroom|
|Actors:||Johnny Depp, Sean Connery, Joey K.|
|Sports:||backyard volleyball, swimming|
|Colors:||black, purple, red, blue, dark green|
|Food:||Skittles, Pixie Sticks, Sour Punch Straws, Caramel Creams|
|Quotes:||"You must be as serious as the muffin surrounded by cupcakes", "Shut up"|
More and More and More...|
There's just always more arguing. It never seems to end. He never wants to listen to anything I say or anything I'm trying to say. I want to be with him but I hate the way he acts sometimes..
There's so much I want to say that I never can...
Like that I enjoy being around him but I don't want to have sex that often. I enjoy his company but I want to have a "talking" relationship as well as a "cuddly" relationship. I want him to listen just like I want to listen to him tell me about his problems.
I just never know what to say until it's too late to change what's already happened. It's...
I hate myself
I hate myself anymore. I bitch and complain about the dumbest shit. I don't feel like myself. One minute I'm yelling and screaming and the next I feel like crying my eyes out. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't feel like there's anything I can do anymore. I argue with Jimmy all the time. I complain to my mom about every little thing. I can't talk to anyone about anything without told what a bitch I'm being.
I don't even know that I'm doing it. I just want to get away from everyone. No one seems to notice that I don't know what the hell is happening. It's scaring me.
I don't know...
Whatever. Life's so different lately....
Zoe was born February 10. She's positively gorgeous. I love her to death and I miss her so much every day.
Everyday, though, Jimmy makes me feel like i can make it to tomorrow. I've become so dependant on him that I feel like I can't go without him sometimes. Even when he calls at midnight for four thirty am after just barely getting to sleep, I don't mind.
All those late nights, just talking on the phone, are what make our relationship special. We can talk like that on the phone and in person. Nothing stops us from communicating except for my...
There's been a lot going on lately. I'm not sure how I'm quite going to get through all of this but I'm glad I have everyone's support...especially Jimmy's. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's the greatest.Everyone asks if I'm nervous. I'm not as long as he's there with me. I love him.