|Main blog:||My Life|
|Birthday:||July 21st 1983|
|Religion:||Spiritual but not religious|
|Race/lineage:||White / Caucasian|
|Location:||United States, Oregon, Medford|
|Height:||5' 8" (173 cm)|
|Vision:||No assisted eyewear|
|Hair Color:||Dark Brown|
|Hair Style:||Straight - Long|
|Relationship Status:||Single - Involved|
|Family Info:||A mom/dad & 2 brothers and a very loving fiance :D!|
|Astrological Sign:||Cancer (June 22 - July 22)|
|Liquor:||Gave it up|
|Your Home:||Live with another|
|Biography/About:||Recently moved into our first home with my Fiance Tom.|
|Likes:||Blood/Gore; Horror Movies; Sci-Fi Books; Gothic; Video Games; Rock; Heavy Metal; Rap; Techno; Stepmania|
|Dislikes:||the smell of pee; pink; closed minded people; lairs; players; rude people; school|
|Interests:||web designing, html, surfing the net, books, video games, movies, astrology, guys|
|People/Heroes:||Don't actually have any.....|
|Books:||The Snow Queen, The Summer Queeen, The Book Of Atrus, The Last Vampire 5, The Book Of Ti'ana, The Seiral Killer Files|
|Authors:||Joan D. Vinge, R.L. Stine|
|Music Genres:||Classic Rock, Alternative Rock, R&B, Pop, Classical, Techno, Rap, Heavy Metal|
|Bands/Artists:||Pink Floyd, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, Evanescence, Seether, Blue October, Gnarls Barkley, Staind, Garbage, The Doors, Greenday, 3 Doors Down, Coldplay, Slipknot, Dashboard Confessional, System Of A Down, Rammstein, Foo Fighters, Jack Johnson|
|Songs:||Comfortably Numb, Hand The Feeds, Sweet Dreams Are Made Of These, Bring Me To Life, Sympathatic, Hate Me, Crazy, Right Here, Bleed Like Me, People Are Strange, Boulevard Of Broken Dreams, Let Me Go, Speed Of Sound, Before I Forget, Vindicated, B.Y.O.B., Best Of You|
|TV Shows:||Home Movies, COPS, Forensic Files, Cold Case Files, Filmore, Sponge Bob Square Pants, Aqua Teen, Simpsons, Family Guy, Big O, Ghost In The Shell, Full Metal Alchamist|
|Movies:||Friday The 13th, House of A 1000 corpses, Child's Play, Hell Raiser, Resident Evil, Halloween, People Under the Stairs, Evil Dead|
|Games:||Final Fantasy VII, Tomb Raider, Light House, Return to Zork, Silent Hill 2, Resident Evil 3, King's Quest, Quest For Glory, Doom|
|Colors:||Blue, Green, Purple, Black|
|Pets/Animals:||2 dogs, 3 birds, a rabbit, and a fish|
|Drink:||Dr. Pepper, Vanilla Cola|
|Quotes:||You have nothing to fear but fear itself, do unto others as you want done unto you|
Eh..the stuff I go through daily isn't anything new..nothing at all. Oh well..people come on go..those who you thought were the one weren't and those who you thought you could trust..were those you shouldn't of met. Yeah..I almost opened up and told someone how I actually feel about them..Hahaha..What a laugh..Good thing I was able to cover my ass..They'll never know and besides it wouldn't matter anyway. I'm wondering how some people have all the luck with love..I guess maybe it's because either they are just too blind to see what's going around them or they see it but just don't care..I...
Right now I'm back where I started. I'm confused and lost. Not only that once again as I try and show someone who I really I am..I end up doing it wrong. Another guy doesn't like me because I'm fat and ugly. I'm not surprised cause hell it's the truth..I am fat and ugly. Duh..I never said I wasn't. How I handled the news was wrong..I let who I really am come out in a flash..Now my good side is wanting to repent and recover. It's too late I know and why I would want to recover another useless friendship is beyond me. I'll never truly get why I have a good side. That's the side that everyone...
Work was hell this week, of course every week is hell at the place I work. But I guess work is just suppose to be that way. My pop said something really funny when he dropped me off at work last night. He said try an don't work too hard. I laughed..for too reasons..I was brought up in a household where you had to work hard cause you had to to get any where and also because I should of been fired but wasn't because of the fact that I do work hard. Although I had to run at of the fucking place cause I was just so fucking pissed off at everyone there. I wanted to go off at the next person that...
once again nothing..once again hopes crushed and dreams shattered. Once again I was unable to change. Once again words were unspoken and once again I'm left in the dark.
This isn't anything new and I'm not at all surprised. I thought though that I was going to be able to change for once this time but nah I failed. I hate change, I just don't know how to let it happen. I guess it's because I'm too realistic about somethings, like how my luck with certain things. I knew that this certain situation wasn't going to go my way and instead of letting it work out on it's own I did everything I...