Happy Halloween everyone. It's been a while that I've wrote something. Just wanna release my feelings. Oh and Kevin "Kay" Lee, this one's for you.
Watching him from a far as he seriously read his book put a small smile on my face. How his bangs fall from his eyes, his hazel eyes casually reading the words which I knew that he had known so many words just by reading so many books. The way he lift his hand to turn the page. The way he sighs and made me think he didn't like the situation of the book that he's reading. The way he smiles wryly on the part that he is reading...
My Heart Says
It's kinda sad that I'll never be the same again. My heart had somehow succumb to it's loneliness for these past few weeks. Every time I think about what happened a month ago, my heart becomes so heavy I could stop breathing. I couldn't feel anything anymore but my eyes do the talking. I wanted to love again but this time my heart won't let me.
It's like if my heart was a person it tells me to be on my own because in the end we only need ourselves. I've told my heart to let go and love again but somehow it's being stubborn because it can still remember the painful words that he said. I told...
Words Left Unsaid
How very unfortunate I was disconnected by our net today. Rynn, Yihui, and I were talking about stuffs. Serious stuffs, if I'm correct. *sigh* I still feel bad about what happened last Monday, really. Apparently Cancerian people hate rejections and yeah I do agree about it.
As Rynn was yelling "Bitch" to release her anger [she's pissed off today], Yihui was yelling "Poo Face" and I was about to laugh to that when I stopped myself. Who am I kidding-myself?
I know, dear blog. I know I am very SENSITIVE. Hey, it's not like I didn't reconsider his feelings. I didn't want to tell...
I just realized the song Bittersweet by Within Temptation was given by him. Ugh.
Why, why, why, why, WHY do You have to make me vulnerable to such feelings? I missed him more than ever and I can't believe I just blurted out to him that I love him. But why must he be insensitive to such feelings like love? It breaks my heart even more.
If he told me that he'll never tell me how he felt about me anymore and will tell me when the day that we will meet, then I guess that would be the last time I'll tell him I love him. Am I just the only one making this relationship work? I really...