Embracing my life and moving forward
I have to take my first test for my esthetician license. If I pass it I have a job waiting for me, but I have to take another test to actually get my license. I hope that I can take the test that same week, so I can start working. If that happens that can really boost my spirits. I can feel productive again.
This is what I want
• What is Buddhism?
Buddhism is a religion to about 300 million people around the world. The word comes from 'budhi', 'to awaken'. It has its origins about 2,500 years ago when Siddhartha Gotama, known as the Buddha, was himself awakened (enlightened) at the age of 35.
• Is Buddhism a Religion?
To many, Buddhism goes beyond religion and is more of a philosophy or 'way of life'. It is a philosophy because philosophy 'means love of wisdom' and the Buddhist path can be summed up as:
(1) to lead a moral life,
(2) to be mindful and aware of thoughts and actions, and
(3) to develop wisdom and...
Back for Nothing
It has been many moons since I have posted in here. Much has happened, but much has stayed the same. I still disgust myself. I feel the fat on my neck bunching up, my bloated stomach sits on my lap, my teeth have a gritty film on them, my hair is flaky and lusterless, my thighs are flabby and wrinkly, my face is blemished and dull. I am still unemployed, lazy, and umotivated. My credit has went back in the toilet due to not being able to pay my child support. My boyfriend still doesnt want to have sex with me. I have resorted to have sex with others to try to fill the void and that...
I have a daughter who I haven't seen in years, but I pay child support with no complaint. They now tell me that I am delinquent with payment and I am past due. Since I have started paying child support I paid my back child support off and have never missed a payment since then (2006). I actually called about this a couple years ago. I saw I had a balance and called and they told me that it would work out because some months I have 3 payments instead of two and that would pay it. It didn't. I even told them when I called them the first time about this that maybe I should increase my...