It's dark, but not pitch black. We're sleeping in his bed, in the basement. Something is different though. Where an unused door into the other half of the garage once stood, now there is this large pipe. It's got a hatch, like on a submarine. It has the wheel you spin to open it. I feel like I need to open it. It's cool but not cold in the damp basement. As I walk over to the hatch my bare feet slap on the cold concrete. The hatch is at about chest level. I open it and what greets my eyes is a corpse. It's head is on almost backwards, a clear broken neck and blood trails it. There's a bend...
People don't really know
Okay so I am generally a very calm and understanding person. I need to clarify that because I really need to BITCH about two people in my life and I am going to sound like the most insensitive bitch in the world.
First off, Cary is a rude, self serving bastard. He comes from a very poor family (like I do) and unfortunately it didn't teach him anything. He is super greedy and is so disconnected with reality. Honestly, not everyone can have a sugar daddy who pays you just to allow him to have sex with you. When you tell me I should quit my job without having a backup when I have bills to...
A ridiculous amount of nonsense
Today has been particularly hard. I'm just being dragged down by the invisible force that is life. It's almost as if I am trying to climb mount Everest in a bathing suit and house shoes. Honestly a little bit of positivity would go a long way. What happens when I talk to the one person I would hope would give me some joy and love? He says 'only you have the key to your own happiness.' That is the most generic, noncommittal thing anyone can tell someone with depression.
I could barely make it home from the gym. I had hoped that working out would vent some frustration, which it did very...
Wow it's been a very long time since writing and there's been too much going on to accurately recount what's happened in the years since I've posted. Here's a quick overview:
Caris and I are no longer together
Nickalus is my boyfriend's name and we have been happily together for almost two years now.
I've graduated high school
I'm in my second quarter of college.
I don't know what I want to do with my life.
I'm working at Morgan's Ace as I have been for almost two years.
They still treat me like shit and walk all over me.
One thing they don't know, I'm not going...