My life was messed up long time ago. My world was sluggish and it never dared to move or shift a bit. I tried to restore my innocence but I was like deceiving myself in front of the mirror. I travelled my world in search for peace and the truth, nothing but gray ashes of lies and deceit was all I found. It rained all throughout the lonely years of my life here in my world, a desolate and a barren place for a someone who likes to stay awake for the rest of the night and sleeps when the sun is about to show up in the sky. It felt like I was awake for a year yet I didn't see what's happening right down in front of me. I was in bad mood for 20 years, I could say. I laughed but I never smiled. I let other people ruin my life when it's not supposed to be like that, because I was intending to ruin theirs. I inserted a lot of impediments in my life, as if it was a decoration, pleasing to the eyes. But lethargy came and ate me; it broke me into pieces; it shattered me into tiny bits of despair. Every night and day that passes by, I blame myself and that girl in the mirror who kept staring at me for a long time. I was like an unfinished jigsaw puzzle left in one corner and no one ever dared to cease my never-ending dejection, for I was the main trouble here. I was waiting for someone to have the courage to take a higher level of risk and danger just to solve the predicament and help me organize this messed up home I'm living in and to give me an extra hand in finding the missing pieces of me. I was scattered all over the place. I'm everywhere. It's hard to be broken and damaged when you wanted so bad to be whole again. Even the best glue in town couldn't put back the pieces of me together. I wanted change so badly. I seek change in every people I met, but they left me slouching in a cold ditch. I wanted change..and I couldn't find that if I would try to look for it in a place where it doesn't exist. When truth has finally come out of my senses, I realized I have to leave this cold and empty home, this piece of junk that I've been staying for so long. Frustrations in the past, depression that I've felt and the tears that I've cried created the new me. I'm coming out of my comfort zone. You can't bring me down nor crush me, because it's my time now to that. I've been to hell and back and now that I'm here, I'm going to give you the sweetest reprisal that I've learned from my past. I'm going to inflict pain as twice as much as you did to me! Witness how I'm going to destroy you in my hands! Now, for the first time in my history, LET ME LIVE MY OWN LIFE! THIS IS MINE AND NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME NOR MESS IT UP FOR ME! You can't bring wreckage in my life! I'd love to see you try and break me...
purple and black colors,
talking to my friends,
playing the keyboard and drums,
listening to rock and alternative music,
Shinichi Kudo (conan edogawa),
learning Korean language (in writing, reading and speaking),
pizza and any pasta,
coke, C2 apple and yakult,
collecting slippers, bags and earrings,
J-Pop and K-pop (Japanese and Korean Pop Music),
punk, classic, ska, jazz, reggae, rock and alternative music
cats and dogs,
writing a lot! (stories, scripts, essays, etc),
korean movies (horror and love stories),
spongebob squarepants and patrick star,
playing badminton and table tennis,
surfing the net,
red and black nailpolish,
smokers, drunk bastards, flirts, bitches, backstabbing idiots, hypocrite people...please be real! certified liar and stupid suckers!!
people who think that they look so hot and gorgeous even if aren't!!
very judgmental people...keep out!!!
And last thing, I absolutely
sa lahat ng kasama ko sa work, sa HANPHIL, mga dudes, last day ko na bukas..pasensya na kung nag-voluntary exit ako..career move lang talaga...kelangan eh... *pahid luha*
MAMIMISS KO KAYONG LAHAT DYAN..SOBRA!
Pag pwede ba babalikan ko kayo..nakakatakot naman..hehehe..I mean, babalik ako dyan when God tells me to..sa ngayon, dito muna ko sa lilipatan ko..dito nya ko nilalagay eh..I just hope I read his signs correctly... *sigh*
KAT - mamimiss kita..ang kakalugan mo, ang pagiging green mo minsan, ay, palagi pala..hahaha..alagaan mo si Gayeon. she's so dear to...
Paalam na...oras na para mag-alsa balutan..
Paalam...anim na titik..isang salitang madaling basahin, madaling sabihin, madaling baybayin, madaling bigkasin, ngunit mahirap ipaliwanag kung bakit pa kailangang sabihin. Ilang tao na ang nagsabi sakin nyan. Bakit ba palaging may kasamang pagluha ang pamamaalam? Halos kapareho ng naramdaman ko nung nasaktan ako sa pag-ibig...ganun din yung naramdaman ko nung malaman ko na lilipat na pala ng bahay yung dati kong kaibigan na malapit sakin. Para akong iniwan sa isang lugar na hindi pamilyar sakin. Ganito rin yung naramdaman ko nung nalaman ko na magtatrabaho na pala sa ibang bansa ang tatay...
Karma is real indeed!
You're now having the dose of your own karma, sweetie...enjoy it while it lasts..I see myself in you now when you left me suffering before..you're now into my shoes...and it fits you very well, my cinderella boy..how does it feel? I didn't ask God to give you this kind of surprise...but He is really good that He knows how to let you feel the pain I once felt before...we're even now...but I think mine is doubled! it's like having a scoop of my favorite ice cream with chocolate syrup topped with cherry to make it more tempting to one's eyes..mine's better cause it's God's vengeance...it's...
The Tree, the Leaf and the Wind...
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt...